March: Panic! In More Ways Than One

So March has been and gone so suddenly we are into April!

This is only going to be a short post because I wrote about the main thing that happened in March in a separate blog post: “Getting A Second Chance With University“. That’s my main news…dropped out of one university doing one subject but I am starting a new course at a different university in September!

I am incredibly pleased about this obviously but means I am currently in a weird state of not knowing what to do. I’ve requested more shifts at work and in fact this month I will be working two jobs so I won’t be dossing about but there were a few moments in March where I had a moment(s) of panic.

It is fair to say that I am a sufferer of panic attacks. Not all of the time but through periods of high stress or uncertainty I seem to be prone to them.

Last month, I had two bad panic attacks. One was before I got my offer for my new course as I was worried about what I would do if I wouldn’t get in but the second…I am really not sure. I think there were many different things that factored into it and my body just crashed. Said no thank you.

I had to get a little selfish – not something that comes naturally to me.

It occurred to me that I was spending so much of my time worrying about a few other people’s well-being when actually I myself was struggling. So I’ve taken some time to reset, focusing on myself to get me in a better place.

I now feel ready to turn my attention back on others. I feel fresh and okay.

Now the other sort of panic is the Panic! At The Disco type. I had the pleasure of seeing them live at the Arena Birmingham towards the end of the month. They were incredible.

I very rarely go to arena shows as a whole. I actually prefer attending gigs at small venues because of the atmosphere and the ease of the night. Oh and it’s cheaper! But, I didn’t want to miss the chance to see this awesome band in the flesh. Tickets sold out within the first hour of being on sale and I remember the heartbreaking moment when I thought I had missed out.

But I hadn’t and I got to the front (perks of working at the arena I suppose).

I was blown away by the talent Brendon Urie has. I knew he was talented and that he – on his own – is basically P!atD but to pull a performance like that out of the bag night on night is simply incredible. He sung (obviously) with an incredible vocal range and played a plethora of instruments: piano, guitar and drums. I did film a couple of bits and put them on YouTube if you want to check them out!

Drum Solo (+Back Flip) | Bohemian Rhapsody | I Write Sins Not Tragedy

It was definitely the highlight of March. Oh and spending International Happiness Day with some people who mean a hell of a lot to me.

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So that was March! I’ve got a handful of awesome shows to review in April which I am very much looking forward to. Thank you for all the support you’ve shown this blog recently, I have truly been blown away.

Take care x

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